The things I love about you

I love every moment we spend together.

I love the way you make me love everything about you.

I love how even when you get on my last nerve, you can still find a way to make me smile.

I love how you make me feel protected.

I love how you make me feel like nothing in the world can touch me.

I love how you make me feel like I am your queen.

I love you because you have given me everything I will ever need to be happy.

And I love you more because you support, respect, and help me grow.

Thank you!

With all my heart,

The Ratchet, Curiousmami

While I was gone

Hi guys!!! I just realized that I haven’t been here in a really long time. I am very sorry to whomever reads my blog, I want you guys to know that I really appreciate it. every time I write something in here, its me sharing a little piece of my heart. I can tell you that while I was gone a couple of things happened. I started a small business, I realized that I love making little clutches and wallets and that they were fairly easy to make. So, since I happen to be a stay at home mami of two little ones I decided that a little extra cash would not hurt me. so there you have me making cute little bags in my living room to sell while my children played on the carpet. I gotta admit that having something to do for myself made me extremely happy. When I started selling them I did very well, even better than I had anticipated, and that gave me the confidence to open an online store, however my heart totally broke when the online turned out to be a big disappointment. I was selling way less than I was paying to keep the store running. As much as I hate to admit it, the feeling of failure crushed the confidence that I had acquired during the previous months. In addition to that, I had set a goal for myself to get fit, since I gave birth to my baby boy last April. I found that doing  that was extremely hard, I felt very alone during those months. and ended up completely depressed. I felt that it was another failure and that, along with the stress and the disappointment of seeing my dream collapse crushed me in more ways than one. Somewhere along these lines I had to face a lot of personal problems, and was let down by a couple of people I loved. So there I was, a complete train wreck, depressed and unable to organize, my mind, my spirit, much less my weight. but during those moments I never stopped telling myself that better times would come. That, I should take all those emotions in just like I would take in joy, success, and love. More than anything I allowed myself to appreciate those horrible days, savor the tears that I cried, and the moments I found myself all alone sitting on my bed wishing somebody could hear me. Because I had to learn, I had to live, not the best moments of my life, but I had to live them, and make sure that I learned from all those feelings, because as I have gotten out of “the cloud” as I think about whatever it was I went trough during the last 5 months, I realized that being happy feels happier, that the company of the people that love me feels like the best thing in the world. Bottom line, experiencing the bad has made the good that much better. I learned a lot of things about myself that  I wouldn’t have otherwise. So maybe I have bored you to death, and you decided to stop reading a bunch of lines ago, but if you are still reading, if you’ve ever felt like I did, I thank you and I tell you that it gets better and that it too shall pass. today I’m still trying to figure things out, and enjoy motherhood, I feel happy with myself , I look forward to the future, the good and the bad. I love my life, my family, and all  the friends that have stood there besides me, and the ones I have found along the way including you.

I’m super happy today

Hi guys! I’m super happy today for two reasons. Number one. Today is my husband’s birthday! Yay! I love him, and I’m so happy to have him in my life.
I have seen my husband grow from a high school boy, into a man who takes very good care of his family, who works so hard every single day to provide for us with no reservations. And I am so very happy to spend another birthday with the love of my life.

The second reason why I am super happy is because it also happens to be our 6th wedding anniversary. 6 years seem like a really long time, but it feels like it was just yesterday, when on a cloudy morning I was getting ready to go marry him, when my then best friend was helping me get my hair, and makeup done in my bedroom floor. I was very excited, and couldn’t believe it was finally happening. It seems like it was yesterday. Its very true when people say that time flies when you are happy.

Time has flown indeed. We have learned so much about life, and about each other. We have gone though so much to be together, to learn that we are not perfect, but we love each other the way we are. Yes, I might not like that he takes up most of the bed when he sleeps, or that he always takes over the remote control. And he might not like that I’m probably the most disorganized person he knows, and that I feed him scrambled eggs more often than he’d like.

One thing we know for sure, is that we want to be together and that every time either one of us has fallen, the other one has been there ready to provide support, and most importantly, that we have never let go. No matter how hard things might get, we keep holding on to all the beautiful things we have lived together.

I can tell you guys today I have many, many reasons to be happy. Not only because I can get to spend another birthday with the man I love, or because I’ve spent six amazing years married to him. But because God has blessed me beyond belief. One of the things I’m the most grateful for is because God has allowed me to experience what being in love with someone feels like, because by putting two strangers together he has given them everything they never thought they’d want so badly, like our family, and our beautiful, amazing children. So for all of that I’m grateful.

As always, thanks for reading, you guys!!

With tons of love,

Curiousmami

The perfect poem for all my girls out there!

Hi guys!! i was doing some clean up on my email account and I found this poem. It was sent to me by a great friend of mine, and I just want to pass it along to all the great women out there.

“MAYA ANGELOU’S”

BEST POEM EVER

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,

even if she never wants to or needs to…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

something perfect to wear if the employer,

or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

a youth she’s content to leave behind….A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

a past juicy enough that she’s looking forward to

retelling it in her old age….

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

one friend who always makes her laugh… and one who lets her cry…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ….

a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,

and a recipe for a meal,

that will make her guests feel honored…

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE …

a feeling of control over her destiny…EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

how to fall in love without losing herself..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

how to quit a job,

break up with a lover,

and confront a friend without;

ruining the friendship…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

when to try harder… and WHEN TO WALK AWAY…EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

that she can’t change the length of her calves,

the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

that her childhood may not have been perfect..but it’s over…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

what she would and wouldn’t do for love or more…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…
how to live alone . even if she doesn’t like it…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

whom she can trust, whom she can’t,

and why she shouldn’t take it personally…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

where to go…

be it to her best friend’s kitchen table…
or a charming inn in the woods…
when her soul needs soothing…

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW…

what she can and can’t accomplish in a day…
a month…and a year…

With tons of love,

curiousmami

A good bye letter.

How many times in a marriage have we not felt like saying all these things. Drama and pain are always one step behind every relationship. And as long the two parties never stop loving each other, they will never hear this from the other person

Sometimes I reflect on so many things, and I just feel like I need to give up. I cannot undo the past and pretend you never hurt me, I cannot stand on a ground that just crumbles with every step I take. There is so much I don’t know and some times don’t care to know, but I force myself to care because if I don’t care… Well I wouldn’t care, and unfortunately I do. You have always been your own person, and you have never been yourself with me. Yet if you cannot, and will not be who you are why do you cling on to me the way you do. The truth is that I can’t keep on walking on a road I don’t know, by your side but completely separated always waiting for you to hold my hand… And just see how you hold everyone else’s. And just wait to be left for last. I know you are a wonderful person full of great love and potential, who just doesn’t really love me. The years and circumstances have keep us together in a place where we are not being who we really want to be… And at the end of the day, we both really want to be happy. Having said that I cannot be happy, who I really am. Knowing that all the things I don’t know, and all the hurt are always hanging over us like a dark cloud, always ready to burst and star pouring over our heads. I know you and I know the great love you are capable of giving… And you have not done so with me. With this letter I go, and I leave thanking you for making my heart so much stronger, for allowing me to learn how to smile while in the inside I felt like dying… But I also learned I will never die. Because with every crying day came a night, when I looked in the mirror and said “you are a stronger, and bigger woman than you were when you woke up” and I will always thank you and appreciate you for that.

DLG